The Work is Everything

I started my own self development journey when I was 16 and so, I have had a lot of years of doing ‘the work’, going deep, spotting patterns, self reflecting, uplevelling awareness, and processing.

The lessons have been plentiful and no doubt they will continue to be. I’m cool with that, in fact, I love it, because … I got this!

I feel that my purpose on this earth is to be a filter for my own bullshit first so I can smell everyone else's a mile away without judgement. To be a processor, a reflector, and because of those things, a seer. So ... honing daily, mastery of self always, and in turn I get to see everything. What a life. What a gift!

I process hard, fast, deep and with intention, and one of my walks is like a lifetime of therapy. Life altering shifts occur and I'm in it to win it.

This evening's walk was 90 minutes of start to finish processing. The pattern that came up  was 'too much effort'. Have you ever heard yourself saying something was 'too much effort', or a variation on that theme?

Well, it began with me catching a thought that appeared in my head. I am currently working on releasing plantar fasciitis in my left heel and on the walk, my foot started to get a little sore. Now ... what came to me was - pain is just pain but ... it needs acknowledgement and recognition and awareness while moving through it ... to move it and then release it.  Think about massage ... (I'm a qualified massage therapist), we poke the pain, make it more sore, then it eases, and then it releases. The same with physio.

The same with therapies and spiritual healing ... poke the pain, allow it to get ‘more sore’, feel it, then release it. But … we have such panic around pain, that usually people medicate it as fast as possible rather than letting it be what it needs to be and processing it.

So ... I kept walking and what came to me was ... I can go home and pop my feet into a nice basin of hot water with epsom salts, but ... hot on the heels of that thought was this one ... that's effort.

I paused the thought, kept walking, and asked the question ... why am I not worth the effort? Because at the end of the day that is what it's all about. Every pattern we have is all about us 'cock blocking' ourselves in one way or another from feeling better, having what we want, doing what we want, being who we want to be etc.

So, I had to acknowledge the thought, and then allow an avalanche of truth to land ... 10's of instances came to me at once, of moments when I have used 'its too much effort', and I got to see all of them and process that pattern, filter it through me, roll it around, figure out where it came from, why, what I would do with it next and ultimately ... release it. It took about 27 minutes start to finish.

I kept walking because once that pattern had made its way through me, it was time to rewire and repattern in the new code I wanted to upgrade to. That took 54 minutes and was the most gorgeous time for landing the truth of my matter, step by step.

Have you ever done that? Walked yourself through an entire pattern disruption and upgrade? It’s the coolest of processes and it doesn’t get any less cool every time I do it.

Imagine 80 minutes of pure self actualisation, and the freedom once you’re done. Can you?

I am always so willing to see myself and dive so I can be the fullest version of me, the real me … not the one other people have tried to make me be when they put all their ideas, learnings, dogmas, rules and regulations on me, but the whole me, under all the layers and the conditioning and the programming … that me is liberated, sovereign, and an unapologetic badass. Who wouldn’t want to get to know that version of themselves?

And it’s in those daily moments of knowing myself deeply that I get to play with the ideas that come to me and bring them to life.

You have no idea how much I want that for you too! That feeling of being free enough inside yourself to create from source and with source.

The FREEDOM SESSIONS are the place to be for you and your deepest self. You know what to do.

Xoxo

Ciara

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