The Purpose

For a long time I didn't think I could 'just' do the thing I wanted to do. So much so that I pushed it aside for quite some time.

As I've told you before, I began writing when I was 9, at least ... that is the earliest memory I have, and it has always been something that flows. I love it. I can say what I want, how I want, when I want, in the format I want. COOL! But ... somewhere along the way I brought my thinking mind into things and writing became not enough.

I remember the moment I asked myself ... what if I 'just' wrote? What if I actually recognised that writing and teaching is where its at for me. Not teaching in the typical head-of-the-classroom kind of teaching, althought I have loved all my times teaching classes of all kinds throughout my life, but the kind where I get to have a lesson, learn from it and then teach what came up for me so you can see what that looks like and do the same for yourself. See, my lessons are for me, but something in the learning might just be for you to dissect for yourself. I am all about self leadership ... if I can lead myself I know with full certainty, you can lead yourself too. You are super powerFULL and capable of it. I can see you in your full power.

When I asked myself that question, what came in loud and clear was ... how fun would that be. How freeing, how easy. Those words felt like a total home coming. Free and easy. But I don't do free and easy, do I? I do learn and grow. I do - total reinvention of the wheel - so I can dissect the process and see what works, I do grind and searching and hunting and seeking and raw truth and radical honesty ( used to just be called honesty ;) ), and none of that is easy ... but what if it could be. What if I went with the flow intuitively into the deep valleys and high mountains I find and allowed what was for me to come through easily? Well ok then ... I can do that. Maybe!

So I wrote more, I let it flow, mostly, and I loved it all ... until I questioned myself again and found coaches. Coaches who said 'you can make 10k in 3 minutes and I can show you how, all you need to do is rob your granny of all her savings and max out your credit cards and then ... all will be revealed' - eh - that never materialised though! Go figure!!

But, in all of that, what I took was ... maybe I 'should' be coaching so I can make money and ... blah blah blah. I loved coaching and had some brilliant clients who were so ready willing and able to dive into themselves, and let me see what came up for them and give it to them like the gift it was. I'm a pure channel so I have the cool gift of seeing for people. And it was fun, when it happened. But it was slow, and often quiet, and it wasn't for the want of me screaming about it from the rooftops. I'm not shy in coming forward, I find false modesty one of the biggest turn offs EVER!

By the time I became aware of just how far away from my true purpose I had gone, and there was nothing wrong with that because ... 'everything happens for a reason and in the exact time its supposed to ... I wondered would writing even matter then? But I came back to it, went ALL IN guns blazing and had a blast.

I have written some cool books, been in a couple of lead co authored books, lead some co authored books, edited some epic books, guided some awesome people in their book writing journey, and then the vibe changed.

Now ... I don't know about you but I am an advocate of change. Pivoting, adapting, moving, whatever you want to call it, when it comes from a personal uplevel. We have no business being so egotistical that we think we must stay the same for life. Everything else changes so why wouldn't we. I also love change. Messy, tough, beautiful, all of it. I started to realise there was a new element ... one that was always there but I just remembered it because, in all fairness, thats what life is all about. Remembering what we have inside us because all answers live there. So I opened my eyes on the inside to see what wanted to be seen and lo and behold ... there it was ... the next piece of my purpose puzzle ... the next iteration of writing and teaching ... as plain as the nose on my face ... write a play she said, and while you're at it ... you novel won't fuc&ing write itself!!!

Ok ... message received you glorious cu*t, attention paid, let's go!

I can only say about this play that it is beyond awesome so far, and I am so excited to pull is all together and find the perfect cast to audition for its first outing into a theatre. And as for the novel ... watch this space.

What is your purpose? Have you found it yet or does it elude you because you haven't opened your eyes on the inside to your brilliance and the things that are easy and free for you to be?

Loads of love

xoxo

Ciara

Editor in Chief - ALL IN MAGAZINE